Jacqueline writes:
"What a difference a day makes, huh? I bet you didn't see that reconciliation coming! Like I said before, there is a lot of love and history between Teresa and me! The chemistry between us is clear and real, even though we frustrate the hell out of each other sometimes. #RollercoasterFriendship #HereWeGoAgain
I wish you could have seen the whole car ride to Crystal Springs with Siggy! We had so much fun! I got those fake buck teeth from the bottom of a Cracker Jack box. LOL! When you saw me shoving a big wad of gum in my mouth, it was because Sig and I had a contest of who could blow the biggest bubble with Bazooka gum! Our mouths were full of it! LOL! We were anxious to get there and continue the fun! We ended up sharing a room together upstairs. We belly laughed ourselves to sleep each night. We had so much fun!
That was interesting to learn that Teresa was offended by my handshake and would have preferred me to hug and/or kiss her instead. What?! I had no idea. I'll remember that the next time I see her after we fight. Pucker up Tre, get ready for a big bear hug and smoocheroo!
There's something I've been noticing since the show has been airing that I didn't see before: It's the look on Melissa's face every time Teresa or I say that we are communicating and/or doing well together or when we are saying nice things about each other. It's been consistent. I think she was bothered by it. It may be where her animosity was coming from. She may have felt threatened or jealous of my friendship with Teresa. She shouldn't be. Teresa's relationship with me is completely different than Teresa's relationship with Melissa. They are family. They should always be close for the sake of their family, their parents and their kids. That goes without saying, and I respect that. My relationship with Teresa takes effort, because we are not family. We are friends that have a long history of closeness then had a falling out. Teresa and Melissa never had that closeness. They are finally just opening the doors to getting to know each other now. One relationship should not interfere with the other. It was never my intention to take Teresa away from Melissa. It's just a different relationship. I'm hoping that it was never Melissa's intention to come in between Teresa and me either. I was just focused on getting my friendship back on track with Teresa, not realizing that Melissa was starting to feel a little threatened by my closeness with her. The truth is, I would have loved for us all to be close. That is the way it should've/could've been. Can't we all get along?
I never thought Melissa and Dolores were bad-mouthing Teresa and me. I think you could tell that in my voice and the way I addressed them. It was using my silly voice and not my angry voice. I just knew that my name, Teresa's name and "eggshells" were brought up, and I wanted everything out on the table. I wanted the girls to know that Teresa and I were doing just fine and there was no need to worry. It felt like old times again. We shared many positive memories and a lot of laughs that weekend.
When you saw me cry over Nicholas, it wasn't something that I normally cry about. In fact, it's rare that I feel like that, but once in a while it affects me and I have to release. It makes me feel stronger afterwards. In that moment, all the girls were talking about their children playing soccer, volleyball, cheerleading, wrestling, etc. and I just thought about Nicholas. Every once in a while I think about him not having the childhood that his typical peers are enjoying, and it hurts.
Nick struggles every day to do the things that typical children do so easily. Sometimes it hurts to see kids that are younger than him passing him up in milestones. I just have to keep reminding myself that although Nick's childhood is different, it doesn't mean it is any less than the others. It's just different. Nicholas has different passions and things he enjoys doing, and he is a very happy kid. Isn't that what every parent wants? Parents want their children to be happy. Nicholas is happy. He IS enjoying his childhood, even if it's different than some of his peers'.
Chris and I celebrate so many of Nick's accomplishments with our friends all of the time. It's what proud parents do! I never want my friends to feel like they can't share their children's accomplishments with me. They should be able to do that. That's why I really didn't want them to see me crying about it. I want them to know I'm ok. Allow me a moment to cry, and it will pass. I honestly do enjoy hearing about their children too. I want them to know that as well. I appreciated their support and compassion during that moment. Those are good friends.
Stay tuned for next week! Here comes Rosie! Everybody loves Rosie! Rosie and Kathy are some of my dearest friends. Give them a shout out!"
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